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raised in tornado alley
Saturday, September 27, 2008      4 comments

i got discouraged here. i did it to myself..... i got tangled up in thinking that i need to be more for other-people. i suck at that. i can only be me. i used to try to wish myself away as a kid...... wish it all away. you do what works whe... Read more
i'm okay, i fell off my little pink cloud
Sunday, August 31, 2008      4 comments

i have a lot of background that i'm thankful for in 12 step recovery support. one of the things i was taught is that you have to be careful of running ass-over-teakettle into a brick wall. i found myself at the back end of august, choking and... Read more
i guess it's still all about me then
Wednesday, August 13, 2008      4 comments

i have no excuse to use for being "away" and unavailable that don't stink of poop. i have pms pretty bad and when my cycle is coming around i have days when i'm very much like keeping a badger for a pet. i might let you pet me, but i'll maybe... Read more
you Know it's all about me....
Tuesday, August 05, 2008      3 comments

i come here to sparkpeople via lots of different places. i am like that little girl, moving a hill of horse-poop and just KNOWING that i am going to find a pony under it..... aa and alanon call that "magical thinking". some therapists too, ... Read more
my pink got away from my perky
Sunday, August 03, 2008      4 comments

i've been rearranging our art room. i got a bunch of beads in last week and i have had the room in a huge unusable mess. it's been at the top of my get-this-done list. but then, so has go see the doctors. and please buy food for this house. ... Read more
paint me perky pink
Wednesday, July 30, 2008      5 comments

ever since i got those good test results from those heart tests last week, i have just stayed upbeat and happy. i know now that i had been wading in da river de-nial about being stressed about it. i went back for a check up at my regular d... Read more
instead of writing
Tuesday, July 29, 2008      4 comments

i'm having a tough time with cravings. i need to go shopping. i've eaten decently, read diligently and danced devinely with a bookcase over today. i made a nice dinner for myself and keith and when my daughter lolly's air conditioner went out... Read more
on sharing my emails here
Monday, July 28, 2008      2 comments

i talked to a new friend today. i've met a few, maybe 4, who have really touched me in a fairly deep way...... i got an email and responded. and since it said some more about who i am and where i been, i stole it and reused it here. i also re... Read more
still dancing
Sunday, July 27, 2008      2 comments

today was better than yesterday on craving wheat, starches and sugar. i expect tomorrow to be better yet. i ate brussell sprouts today! and enjoyed them. that's the first time that has happened in a really long time..... i bought some fre... Read more
kinda like quitting smoking
Saturday, July 26, 2008      3 comments

i looked longingly at his vegetable crackers. i felt my mouth water. he looked me in the eye. i looked away and blushed. i was doing pretty good this past week till i agreed to stay in the hospital for these tests my doc wanted done. i g... Read more
my "2 step" dance
Friday, July 25, 2008      2 comments

i've been feeling a bit "icky" for about 6 weeks. by icky i mean i am tired all the time. i keep getting chest pain. i blew it off to nerve pain from the lung surgery. and it turned out to be most likely that. but before i could relax and ... Read more
prozac and horny toads
Tuesday, July 22, 2008      1 comments

i just read an article on the front page of sparkpeople about women taking antidepressants and using viagra to help out with the "dysfunctional" side effects antidepressants can cause. interesting. read an article a few years ago and it sai... Read more
my journey has stinky feet
Monday, July 21, 2008      2 comments

well...... i've just about gotten a menu put together for next week. it's a little more difficult that i first thought. i'm ready for day 2 of the south beach diet and i still have to feed keith at the same time. lolly and hannah came over t... Read more
uno, dos, tres
Sunday, July 20, 2008      0 comments

day three. not your proudest day so far in regards to my food intake. *makes spit noise* the last of the chili's babyback ribs are gone and i have explained to my sweetie that i intend to get skinny and find the lung of a 25 year old! he ... Read more
tripping over my big feet!
Saturday, July 19, 2008      0 comments

well, here i am again. took me a while to figure out how to get back here. there is A LOT of stuff in this community to read and look at and interact with..... and then there are all the wonderful and happy welcomes from you guys! that ... Read more

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