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I have moved my blog
Thursday, November 24, 2011      1 comments

To everyone who has been following my blog: I have moved my blog, which is a record of my journey from 495 lbs to normal weight, to another site. I did this because WordPress provides a lot of tools to help me manage my blog. I can e... Read more
Why have I given in to my addictions??
Sunday, August 21, 2011      5 comments

When I was a child, around 9 or 10, I began sneaking out to the kitchen at night to search for sweets and other forbidden foods. I used to stay awake until my parents had gone to bed, unable to think of anything else, and then venture out on th... Read more
Thoughts on settling in at the Nursing Home
Sunday, August 21, 2011      7 comments

Well, Here I am. I made it happen. I got my entire family on board, and 4 doctors. I have left home, and come to a nursing home where I can get a stable weight loss diet and physical therapy to help me establish the habit of exercise. It's... Read more
In a dark place
Friday, August 05, 2011      13 comments

I am feeling utterly ENORMOUS. I can barely walk without hanging onto the nearest wall or piece of furniture. I have reconsidered gastric bypass. I need to lose 10% of my body weight first, to satisfy Medicaid requirements. I am looking into goi... Read more
How being fat affected my social development
Sunday, July 24, 2011      6 comments

I saw an episode of the 650 lb virgin today, and it got me thinking about how being fat all my life has affected my social development. Not how people were mean to me, etc. But how I did not go through normal social growth as I grew up. I think ... Read more
My Personality Traits of Addiction
Thursday, July 21, 2011      6 comments

As part of an assignment in the Intensive Care Weight Loss Team, I am going to take a look at how my personality reflects my lifelong battle with addiction. Food Addiction was my first substance of abuse. I got into a lot of other substances ove... Read more
My Shadow Self
Tuesday, July 19, 2011      9 comments

My therapist taught me that Jung wrote of a shadow that each person has that is composed of everything they don't want to face about themselves. We worked on my shadow in therapy, and made some progress, but I realized tonight that a big part of... Read more
DENIAL - It ain't just a River in Egypt!
Monday, July 18, 2011      4 comments

Okay, so I have to look at denial of being overweight to fulfill an assignment in my Intensive Care Weight Loss Team. Ugh! Double Ugh! This is not the sort of thing I would choose to do for fun. I was a healthy, normal weight toddler. ... Read more
Saturday, July 16, 2011      4 comments

I am just now unveiling my new sparkteam, the Intensive Care Weight Loss Team! It is for people who are over 400 lbs, or who have significant barriers to weight loss.... Read more
Catching up on what's going on.
Saturday, December 11, 2010      6 comments

I realized that I have not blogged recently, and that anyone reading my most recent blogs would not know what is going on these days. While facilitating the Mind Over Body workshop on Team 300 lbs Plus, I had a realization. I had been stayi... Read more
It all comes down to ME! (scary)
Saturday, October 23, 2010      1 comments

I have been facilitating a Mind Over Body workshop, based on Sparkpeople's resource of articles on the subject. WOW. It is really hitting me how TOTALLY out of control my eating is, and that no matter how much I want to deny it, I AM ... Read more
Great News!
Wednesday, October 13, 2010      8 comments

Not only has my insurance worked out so that I can stay in the nursing home to lose weight, at least for the next couple of months and hopefully until I can get my knee surgerie(s), but I just got a laptop. They have wi-fi here, so I am BACK! ... Read more
Big Changes, but a New Hope.
Sunday, October 10, 2010      5 comments

I am away from the computer except for rare overnight visits now, but bear with me because it is for a good cause...... I had a bad burn, and had to go into a nursing home until it healed. I started losing weight there, what with physical t... Read more
Second Thoughts
Friday, March 26, 2010      4 comments

Now that I am losing weight, I am having second thoughts about the surgery. I will have to see how I feel when I get to the magical weight where I could have surgery ... Read more
I have made a big decision
Wednesday, August 19, 2009      16 comments

I can finally look at my inspiration photo again. I have regained 48 lbs from my 120 lb weight loss, and SOMETHING has to give! The "hope" factor was missing. I los... Read more

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