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give up
Tuesday, March 26, 2019      5 comments

on so many things I feel like I have already given up on myself and I mourn the loss of my dreams. I don't know how to get back the spark of life. I don't know how to feel worth it.... Read more
Monday, March 04, 2019      7 comments

I am so excited! We are finally moving in to our new house here in the UK TOMORROW!!! We got really lucky with this house. It a 200 year old Manor Farmhouse, in a tiny village, with a huge outdoor space. There is a small Church behin... Read more
Meeting myself half way.
Wednesday, February 27, 2019      4 comments

I keep talking (and whining) about how I want to be and feel like a different person. I look at myself in the mirror and I still see myself in my past. After moving last month, I feel like maybe I really can step into a new life? Not just in ph... Read more
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Friday, February 22, 2019      7 comments

I need to change my tune.... no... I want to change my tune... It doesn't change all the things I've been through, and continue to struggle with.... I've been on a dangerous path that leads to giving up... and that thought makes me even more ... Read more
Tuesday, February 19, 2019      7 comments

I'm forcing myself to write right now because I feel like I have no where else to go. I'm in a place where I literally know no one, except my husband and kids... I can't go to my husband because he doesn't listen. I'm embarrassed to go to my fri... Read more
Best of times, worst of times
Friday, February 15, 2019      3 comments

After living in Germany for 4 years, we find ourselves picking up a new life, in a new country once again. It has been 5 weeks of living in a hotel in the UK. We are waiting for the house we intend to rent to be available for move in, hopefully ... Read more
Opening up
Wednesday, February 13, 2019      4 comments

Isn't it heart warming when someone opens up and shares a part of their life with you, if it be something they've struggled with, or something they have learned along the way. A peak into someone else's life, a vulnerable moment, filled with a r... Read more
A brave life
Wednesday, September 26, 2018      7 comments

Over the weekend I was helping my son navigate the internet in search for information on Galileo. We found a video on youtube, with some informational background, took notes, printed images for his poster... Then a side topic surfaced regarding ... Read more
Tuesday, September 18, 2018      4 comments

Today I plead guilty for life avoidance due to fear and trauma... I have been on this path for sometime, and have lost my way. My therapist said to me today, that avoidance is far more painful then acceptance. Far more difficult, and will ... Read more
What is it going to take?
Wednesday, July 11, 2018      5 comments

"What is something you want to do that scares you and excites you at the same time?" My friend sat across from me at the cafe, daring me to dream a little. I was hesitant to answer because I know she'd push me to act on my answer. Thats wh... Read more
Friday, May 25, 2018      6 comments

I have a lot of regrets. last night I realized one I was not expecting... not believing that I am capable of changing my life. I often think, how am I ever going to be different then I am today, or how I was yesterday... or a thousand yest... Read more
Monday, May 07, 2018      2 comments

In the voice of my dearest, "You are enough" I hope I can live up to this. Yet I walk around in circles, feeling like I don't have enough, to be enough. No, it seems that the things that need to be enough for me to be enough is what is maki... Read more
What do you want?
Wednesday, March 21, 2018      6 comments

I'd like to know? What do you want out of life? It's a question weighing on me right now, and I don't know how to answer? The dreams of my youth seem to lack their luster. My depleted confidence has resigned me to feel as though they... Read more
Expression of being
Tuesday, March 20, 2018      5 comments

I sit here, running in circles around my mind, all these past dreams shouting for my attention on the other side of the wall of mirrors. And when I move closer to listen to its calls, I look into my eyes and the echoing emptiness surrounding me.... Read more
Fear and Perfectionism
Tuesday, March 13, 2018      3 comments

You know when you read something and it just slaps you in the face of it's relevance. You can't even get mad because it just exposed something in you that you've been looking for. But it still stings, because it hits that raw pain that comes whe... Read more

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