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7/19/09 4:48 P

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Well I've always been on the chubby side, really started in third grade.. jsut kept growing.

In 6th grade I saw a girl wearing shorts && her legs jiggled kinda like a vibrating look.. I'm sure you can imagine what I mean.

After that day I NEVER wore shorts to school again. No lie.. && I live in Yuma, Arizona! I wore jeans everyday..wow SIX years of taht!.. because I was soo embarassed of my fat legs. I didn't wear capris until the end of eighth grade. Crazy girl.

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7/18/09 6:07 P

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Since 3rd grade. But I became even more self conscious in college after a boyfriend told me I should drop weight so he wouldn't feel like the skinny one in the relationship.

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7/18/09 12:17 A

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I became self conscious when I started second grade. I started getting chubbier and kids were cruel. But I have an uncle who would always tell me I was big and tell me I had to "get in shape" which would leave me crying in a corner because kids would make fun of me during school and he would make fun of me after school. I just couldn't win. Then he'd fix me a sandwich with mayo and potato salad and doritos. Or order pizza. Or take me out for a burger.

Nowadays he's in bad health and tells me how great I look, that I've never looked better. But I'll always remember the times I spent so self conscious about myself.

Surprisingly, though, I never thought to diet or restrict what I ate until I was about 16. And I was an active kid, I was ALWAYS outside riding my bike, walking, or roller blading. I was the best at kickball. I was just chubby and in shape.

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7/18/09 12:07 A

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ANJEHAR, I can totally relate to you on the boob thing. I've always had larger-than-average breasts, and I've always ALWAYS hated them because of all the negative attention I associate with them. I can remember being called "Chestica" in high school (my name's Jessica) by some of the guys. It was humiliating. Once in college I was wearing this pink shirt that I really liked (but like all shirts for me was tight across the chest) and this guy tried to grab them while we were watching a movie. When I protested, he said, "Well, what do you expect with knockers like you have and a shirt like that."

Anyway, I just HATE it whenever anyone mentions my breasts. I know it's something I have to work on getting over, but it's seriously my biggest body issue (even at this weight!)

For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. --Ephesians 6:12


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7/17/09 4:44 P

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I also don't remember NOT being self-conscious of my weight. I remember painful things that happened in 5th grade, so that was probably the start of my self hate/doubt. So that was about 10 or 11. but girls are developing earlier now, so i can see (sadly) why girls at 8 are self conscious.

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7/17/09 4:30 P

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I believe I was 8 or so. That was when my aunt started saying "you would be so pretty..if only"

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7/17/09 1:30 P

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I don't remember not being self conscious about it. I was the fat kid in elementary school so it has always been an issue for me.

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7/17/09 10:36 A

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I developed early and had huge boobs on a medium sized body throughout my whole life. Boys made sure I was acutely aware of the size of my chest, but I didn't become aware - aware until I reached freshman year of high school and was repeatedly compared to my much smaller senior sister. The comparisons came often and seemed constant and made me hate the fact that I wasn't a few inches shorter and several pounds lighter...I am still struggling with being compared to my sister and wishing I was shaped like her rather than accepting what I was given.

"We can always say we're not hurt by the stones others throw at us, and it's only at night - when we're alone and our wife or our husband or our school friend is asleep - that we can silently grieve over our own cowardice."


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7/15/09 9:15 P

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wow - i just realized how used to being self-conscious i have become! i had to think, "notice it? i feel this way all the time!" then i thought some more and remember when i first became aware that i had become overweight - we were in england visiting friends - i am 5'6" and weighed 165 at the time (pics reveal i looked fine - i wish i looked like that right now) and our "friends" from england kept telling me i really was a "fat american" - i didn't put too much stock into it and figured it was their way of referring to me as novel and different. we came home, saw my now father in law and he was making a fat face behind my back! i caught him doing it and he said, "honey, you look like you are pregnant!" he's a character to begin with so i also blew that comment off. The REAL kicker was when a friend took a pic of me with another girl and i looked like a BEAR compared to her - i looked HUGE and could no longer deny it. i was mortified. at the time of that pic i topped the scales near 200 - i do not hold my weight well either. now, i know what i look like, i don't avoid the scale, and i remind myself that i am working on it - because i am DONE!




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7/15/09 8:48 P

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I've not always had a weight problem or problem controlling my weight until I injured my knee in the Army and needed an ACL reconstruction. It seems things went down hill from there. Over the years as I increased in size I suppose I went into denial for a long period of time. When my size 20 jean became tight around the waist I refused to go up another size, so here I am this year trying to make a change.

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7/15/09 10:51 A

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Gosh, I can't remember a time when I wasn't aware of my body. I remember being in 4th grade and my "friends" did invite me to a birthday party because I was fat. I wasn't even the biggest girl in our group. But, I have always been pear shaped, even pre-puberty. The summer between 6-7th grade, I grew nearly 4 inches in one summer and didn't gain a pound. I was a size 2! And still people called me fat because of my rear. I went through high school feeling fat at a size 3-5. I got sick my freshman year of college and was put on hormones. I gained 67 lbs in about 4 months. I finally matched what people had been saying about me my whole life. I went on to gain about 40 lbs on my own after that. I ballooned to 250. I have been fighting that weight for the last 10 years. I am about 40 lbs from my pre-hormone weight and I think that I may actually achieve it. I have kept one pair of pants from my skinny days... and I can pull them up now. All the way. They don't come near to closing, but they actually came all the way UP! I can't wait to wear those jeans again! And 135 will never be "fat" in my head again!

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7/15/09 9:27 A

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I wasn't aware of anything wrong with my body until January of this year I began getting bigger and the doc said I was in Obese category 1. I freaked. Then I joined SP and lost 25 lbs!

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7/15/09 9:09 A

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I was an "early bloomer" and my mom made me start wearing a training bra to school sometime in the fourth grade when I was around 10 or so. I remember this one girl (who, ironically, ended up with the biggest breasts in school) saw the strap of my bra and started making fun of me. I was just mortified.

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7/15/09 8:16 A

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i was fine with my body till my boyfriend at the time had said that i would look so much better if i lost weight.

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7/14/09 11:29 P

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I have also been a large girl most of my life. I remember going on a family vacation the summer after 2nd grade. I weighed myself on the bathroom scale and I was surprised to see 125 lbs., so I tried not to eat too much on vacation so I wouldn't gain more before beginning 3rd grade. What a terrible burden for a little kid!

Also, when we visited my step-dad's parents on the weekend, we had to line up for them to greet us (there were 7 kids in my family, all in a straight line) and then grandma would comment that I was still big... week after week! So I guess I've always been aware of my size.

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7/14/09 4:00 P

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I have never really been aware of my body. I did not notice when I was slender. I did not notice as I lost weight. I guess I need to work on more body awareness.

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7/14/09 2:51 P

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I was about 8. A girl who was just as fat as I was started calling me "fatso". It hurt! Why I didn't point out to her that she wasn't any lightweight either, I don't know. I never forgot her or her taunts.

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7/14/09 2:36 P

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I have always been overweight but not quite this overweight. I really don't know when I became self conscious but I am going to say when I was in grade school. I seem to remember my Mom having a hard time trying to find a gym suit in my size. Back in those days we had to wear those stupid weight one piece suits. Remember those for those of us over 50.

I also remember, I think it was around 4th or 5th grade I hated to get weighed in front of everyone in gym class.



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7/14/09 2:32 P

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I have always been 'a big girl' but when I look back at pictures, I wasnt really big, just bigger than my stick thin siblings. I was born with wide shoulders and hips and rounded thighs. I personally did not feel big but other people told me I was so that is when I started thinking it.

my oldest daughter is shaped just like me and will likely be a tall women just like me, with the shoulders and hips to go with it. I see nothing wrong with it as long as she is a healthy weight. But society seems to be obsessed with stick people that anything with a curve is put down.

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7/14/09 2:28 P

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I can't recall a specific instance like that, but I've always been the "fat kid" in class and everything. I was always made fun of and teased for it. It scarred me, haha. But nothing like that, no.

I'm still self-conscious, to this day... and I don't know if it will ever go away :[

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7/14/09 2:23 P

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I was at a family event over the weekend and my little cousin who is 9 was saying she wants to lose weight because she is fat. I was shocked that she thought that, being so young. She said her friend's mom commented that she was "big for her age."

This made me think of when I first started disliking my body.. I was in 2nd grade and we were getting weighed at the beginning of the year by the school nurse. I weighed 85 lbs (more than all my friends) and the nurse said "Wow, you're a big girl!" I had never thought of myself as being big, in fact I paid no attention to my size at all. After that comment, I began to look at myself differently in the mirror, and started to wear baggy clothes to hide my chubbiness.

I was just wondering if anyone else had an unwelcome epiphany as I did. It makes me sad and also angry that an adult would say something so careless and cruel to a child.

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